AWE/mirror of heart

The cosmos plays us with illusion: it mirrors and inverts perception to draw us towards light, truth, unity... We want it, but first we must survive. We get the metaphor, just an old upside down one, then we sit on the record scratch and bump bump into illusion like big sweet babies. Inversion is a somewhat kinder road for the real to be revealed. Can we cultivate love and trust for our beloved nemesis/selves over the lash. What is it in the eye that reverses all things so carefully? Where the eye sees out, it looks in. Only through our receptiveness to what is, does the "mystery " vaporize. There is a Mystic's Awe that Multiplies. We were made from stars, and our potential is to be a vehicle for the cosmos, but most of us are hallucinating a lot of the time... We often wear our tomb stone around our neck like an albatross: Here lies [IWM]. Die before you die. Die to broken thoughts. Imagination brings us closer to and further from the real. Is it creative or is it separating. If i was that blind, how blind am i Now? Enter into some kind of communication with a larger reality. Drop some veils-(not all, please)- of the imagination. We are naked, together, slave and free, yet were afraid of XTC. Love is the intention behind the intention. "Stay the same. Change." Who's voice is that? Loosen the tourniquet on your heart. Do a head stand to see something different, be a fool and let the blood of the heart fill your head. Just don't be stupid. Time IS love and love is what is passing. Also will the music of this breath and heart beat. Make your house your home before you fly away.
( first entries are at the bottom- with a different format bc im not that technical!)


 to be continued....
cover and inside box art, design sk  xxxxxxx
beautiful collaboration w Visionary, Paul Rowland,
photography: Sloan Laurtis
Styling: Nicholas Grasa
i think credits should be in there



this was not planned
personal photos from my life
things change
last week , our dear Iaan died
so here i am revisiting one of the sweetest times in my life
scanning a lot, i'm no where near done... that goes for the tears too...
i knew iaan since 5th grade, (tim too) family friends,  all in neighborhood
and he knew all of us.
i don't really know where to begin, in the dayz of my youth...
 (back in the 80's, high school r  photos below ) 
well, other than to kick myself this hurricane evening bc i did not scan my brother kaj here 
he was with us and considered iaan his big brother. 
many an adventure.
It is a time i have forgotten too much of while never letting go of how pure and free it was. 
SO IDEAL A TIME, but not with out heart break...We were all so close.  There was so much love.  The place in the california mountains where we use to go is the source of many of my paintings.  I've returned there every year, and i still feel i have to protect it and its golden quartz...
Reconnecting with love to my old homies, and the stories.  This is good, good people.
maybe NYC kept me a bit too removed from you all.  I always considered myself extremely lucky to be part of such an large imaginative bright wild bunch - in high school no less.
 more piks soonish, once i can swim back to the studio or to california or pilfer from you guys, as u have seen i already found a few.
you were my family, my crew, i salute you.
for Iaan, my little bro, beloved friend.  
i want to tell so many stories,
Miss you more

dave mc cord rip, iaan knott rip 
steph!!!!!! ( iaan, hil, sk...) steph manton photo
tim, hil, iaan, sk
iaan and miss beauty steph 

forrest and iaan


pery morgan iaan, sk
treece iaan mike
eric, sproat mike, friend ( my back yard)

iaan, casprik, jules, tim 
hil, dave mc cord
 poppas, Mc cord, Bruce

sk, justin

just, jason w, sk
Hilary Pillette, me

sk, novice

just, sam, fenton

eden, sk ( think stew is in back)
sk, kim, dave kintz

sk, stef manton

sk, novice

m williams

Hilary pillette, sk, Sybil Ross

justin pillette, Sam

no sleep camper

Casprik, scotty, brian treece


graham sproat

iaan, kim

amy, sk, colin

mike, stu, matt williams

this was a watermelon rind fight....Iaan here as in raiders of the lost arc ( novice and b treece )

george poppas

sk, just, ...

Dave Quimby

matt, brian
bruce, jules, corkey

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graham smith, scott forrest, sk rudy

morgan, max, eric, quimby
perry, bruce

hil, morgan ( still together)

Scott Forrest

jim vandi, bruce, morgan iaan

Iaan, Sproat, Rudy

Iaan, amy, Remick, Miriam

kim , sk

morgan, iaan
quimby and iaan

me, jules, Alex, Mc cord
sam bortnick took this of Mc cord, and B Treece,  kenny rogers ( cop)

sk, scott, max, remick, morgan, aaron 

scotty russel



tim, sk

bruce, kaj, amy, iaan, hil
iaan, sk
iaan (tnx tim have this school pik some where) xx