Wandering holograms

Visions from this life or another reflect distort and invert perception. We may want freedom from the known but to fathom freedom is begin to remember. To remember is to grieve, then maybe see.

An exquisite corpse of impressions course through our lives, an art work entity, a ghost in the machine, driving the machine, relatively polite until analyzed. We set up shop in the impression careening into the same pattern.

To evolve is an option. As the tree is bent, so grows the branch. What glories come with pruning. A contortion becoming.

You, the one who has contemplated loss are easy to sit with. Integrated insight is exquisite life. To trust, we must become trustworthy. The inside eye reverses carefully. Where the eye sees out, it looks in.

Like an allergy, we crave what is inside of us. Crave it like a poison puzzle. Wanting to solve and expel. Everything with in us that we do not love will become an enemy to us. A loss in translation can become a shared psychosis, activating. Enactments repeat multi-generationally. Be still, slow down, nothing is real, but everything is potentially more than this.

We long to return to the garden. Where everything was magical and treacherous. To be small and dependent. How many generations of brokenness does there have to be before you ask for help with tenderness. Real adult life can be a garden that you may walk into or away from, a place of freedom, fruitful, loving. The tether pull is an old devotion that keeps us children - basked and suspended in the afterglow of melancholy. Convincing others is a reversed devotion - to ward off deep untold grief, and very oral. All themes are mutations of the same thing, until we give up the ghost. The content is old. Developmentally delayed devotions. To no longer seek paradise past, is to become paradise present. We, guilty, wear our tomb stone around our neck: "Here lies my expectation (see I was right)". Eternally repairing and repeating heartache until death. My expectation dovetails with yours so fluidly, dangerously. WHY do you think it's so exciting to meet and greet another solitude? It's not to become a martyr, but to join and transcend.

If you can partner w a friend on this road, Where you stumble, you will find your treasure.

People aren't motivated to grow w/o the growing pains in love. Confusing love with pain conflates this. Die before you die is to die to the obsession of mastering the past (all by yourself). Remember you are half-blind.

Once blinded, know you will be blind again. In order to trust, become trustworthy. Love is the intention behind the intention. Voices from the museum, recite the script. The readymade knows how to make the neptunian mirage beautiful as it hurts. Surrender, and give yourself thee love you need. The pain to receive, is to grieve, but you must. What you grieve is beyond the content. It is being bound in a body which denies.

We all hide behind something, no matter how noble. The veils and blocks are there for a reason, they don't need to be ripped off- rather dissolved. If not, they will come back or be passed on. The unworked past pushes into the present. Do you really want to be alone inside? Die before you die. Imagine. If cultivating love is the only path to enlightenment, then how many of us are lost. Love is the ultimate loss of control. None of us want to be bound, and yet.... so so bound. Listen. Loosen the tourniquet on your heart. Suck the air of XTC. Be still. Do a headstand, like the fool lets the blood of the heart fill the head. Time IS love and love is what is passing. Everything is passing. Take care of yourself. Make your house you're home before you fly away.

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6.09.2020

NEST

Sun Trails

A forgotten corner above the woods
once functioned as a single stall stable
wrapped inside loose square wire fencing
behind a wide swinging gate
where under the Oaks
 a pony would enter and exit

Now gone, only faun colored limbs
float the canyon
clammer the dry hillside and woods
to perch upon the old roof top
in an indelible sunbath

stolen away
gloriously alone to witness

These first days of spring full of blossoms known
can tell you nothing of tomorrow
but, like a long distance sprinter
you will carry what you gather

you will carry what you gather

The box in the brambles on a hill, behind a fence then beyond the Oak grove...
and in a canyon
 is nestled away like a page in a  book
a  folded note with in fanning layers

there to absorb rays on sun taught skin
and drink in warm waves of baked sage, lemon flowers,  fine clay
until the calls from above begin

At the top of the hill
the orange setting sun half-penetrates cast stone walls with iron lace windows
like a fortress it keeps 
ghost green floors cool under heat 

Shapes of warm light project another box
through the window
pooling green in grout 
traced squares glide
around leg mounds of the immense carved table 
topped with one slender stem light bends to 
illuminated fluffy chrysanthemum fingers

Then feign to decipher the morph light shifts in a god's face
as you trace lines back to the hour of the stable.

-SK




Parade

your beautiful mind
in text, in visions


and your spaceship...


hovers

 dreaming of wings

Twilight again
we have seen a multitude
soul friend

fragrance bends time


my teacher, my teacher
something spiritual in it
old paths entwined-twin ends
both are teachers


and your ghosty toes
may tip
on down the line


primordially
woven

maybe galactic



this storm we are all in

time to contemplate, not stolen


suspension

not necessarily detention.

sheltering in a half-life, a half dream

love in layers




the risk


the other risk


set
shifts



passing grace

into the wild surrender










5.29.2020

Space



















You, like a deep still Lake


i sit in the morning fog wondering how to be more than the moon;
a magnet, but far away and mute

looking at objects and plants
so many
in my sight

i move myself to remember points of light from yesterdays effort
i saw the sun peek through white washed Eucalyptus wood

A plum volunteered black-red petals to shade my lids
and i lingered there

Another action to brace me 
alone with my dog
Solitude is creative 
it creates more aloneness
and though necessary and deep
nothing matters more than sharing this with you

your unseen face
my garden.

-SK

HU
 
...


Al Wadud, Al Wadud, Al Wadud


  


WALI

3.05.2020

GREEN waves and a dot

travel



green

waves

and a dot

Open fields

drop

oceanic


feelings

glory trails

flutter

the green room
kissing eyes

what magical rainbows cross paths

illuminating soft haired grass

then slip
almost away


off shore the Wache bell swings and dings
signaling


keeping time

near and there


space with atmosphere

languid limbs, bone and skin

electric earth
between birth and water

that rests


and bursts breath
into me



you cant stop the rain,
moon button

it will come

absent fills
  signal
quiet rhythm suspends

reifies
lux sense
...
an ice cream nose
loved intensely

her stockings fell
but held in earnest

the benefit of the doubt
can stop the past from pressing in

...i want the present pressing in

the tender brings
an air of threat

trusting time, movement

to diverge from history,
herculean swan,
is a grand mutation

 time stretches until its time

You give what you need

but can you get
bell swings with the wind and waves
looking  back at you




waking up

            


warm silhouette
thank you


      

waves and a dot